Thursday, July 05, 2007

My best friend in the world just died.

Very suddenly and unexpectedly. And calling her just a "best friend" doesn't seem right...she was more than that. It's not fair that we weren't sisters. Because if you say something about your "sister", people get it. (Plus, most sisters probably don't love and care about each other as we do.) If it's just your "friend", it's not that big of a deal. But she was a big deal. And I don't know what I'm going to do without her for the rest of my life. We figured we'd be old and senile, sharing a room in the nursing home and beating each other with our canes! And if we weren't senile and still remembered we were friends, we'd just hit the other old people with our canes! lol!

She didn't just leave me...she also left a husband and two sons. One starting high school next year, and one in middle school. I really don't know how they are going to do without her!

My eyes hurt so much I don't think I can make any more tears. I miss you Gayla, and I'm not accepting this and I want you back.


20 comments:

Maribeth said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Though we didn't get to know each other so well, we were in a group together(silly fridays) that Gayla dragged you into at a busy time in your life ;) We all loved Gayla, and are going to miss her terribly. Our thoughts are with you, and Dave and the boys.

Sandy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you as I think of the possibility of not growing old with my sister, who became my sister through our hearts, not by blood. We often have the same thoughts that you and Gayla did about growing old together. I am deeply sorry that Gayla has left our lives so early. As Maribeth said, we all loved her and will miss her terribly. She was an incredible woman.
Sending love to you & Dave and the boys. -Sandy

Cindy said...

Lauri,
I spoke with you on the phone earlier, but wanted to let you know again how sorry I am. I know how close you and Gayla were. I know she was as close as a sister to you. She holds a huge place in my heart and I will miss her very much. If you ever need anything at all, even just to talk, I am here.
That is a beautiful picture you took of Gayla.
Love and Hugs,
Cindy

swooze said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Melinda said...

Lauri, I am so sorry about Gayla's death. It is so sudden and so sad. It just doesn't seem real. I also knew you a little from the Silly Fridays group Gayla brought you to. She is such a terrific lady and will be missed so dearly.

GreenishLady said...

I am so sorry for your loss. So sorry.

Elizabeth said...

Oh Lauri, I'm so sorry.

Stefani, of Blue Yonder said...

I'm so sorry, Lauri. I don't even know what to say but to wish you comfort, peace and healing in such a horribly tough and unfair time.

Lelainia N. Lloyd said...

So sorry your heart is in so much pain. I know what kind of a best friend this is-I have a deep connection with my best friend and she often says to me "You can't ever die." We know we'd be totally lost and bereft without one another. When two souls connect, there's no replacing that.

I hope that the love you shared will carry you in the days to come as you grieve this loss.

Sending you supportive hugs.

Rachel said...

My heart goes out to you Lauri. A best friend is truly a blessing, and to lose one is one of the worst things I could imagine.

andie said...

((hug)) I am so sorry to hear this. From the stories I heard from you she sounded like a wonderful friend.

Mama Urchin said...

I am so sorry. I'm keeping you all in my prayers.

blop said...

Lauri, sooo sorry for your loss.

Monica said...

Lauri, I'm so very sorry that Gayla left so early. I know there are no words that can ease the pain that you and her family are feeling, but I do know from experience that time and the faith in God will make it easier to carry it. As cliche and hard as it sound, crying is good, let your pain out, but also find comfort in the treasured memories that you now have and think of her as a special soul that is free in heaven. I f you need someone to cry with, I'm here, I know whta it is to loose a sister.
I'm sending you a big hug and prayers.
Monica

Marisa said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are with you.

Amy said...

My thoughts are with you.

Beth said...

I'm so sorry that this happened. I'll pray for all of you for God's comfort.

She was a beautiful lady.

Kate said...

I'm so sorry Lauri, I hope you are left with many wonderful memories to remember your friend.

eireann said...

oh, I am so, so sorry to read this.

my thoughts are with you and your friend's family. big hug.

Lauri said...

Wow! Thank you, everyone, for all of your words and support!